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법정 스님 " 버리고 떠나기"

'지난달에도 나는 책을 열두상자나 치워버렸다. 책의 더미로부터 자유로워지고 싶어서다. 책을 좋아하는 친구나 도서관으로 보냈다. 일상적인 내 삶이 성에 차지 않거나 다시 시작하고 싶을때 나는 내가 가진 소유물들을 미련없이 정리 정돈한다. 소유물이래야 주로 책이므로, 그 책을 치워버리고 나면 개운하고 홀가분해서 내 삶에 새로운 탄력과 생기가 솟는다. 산에 들어와 살면서 이런 짓을 나는 수없이 되풀이 하고 있다. 그렇지 않았다면 지금쯤 내 둘레는 온통 서책 더미로 울타리를 이루었을 것이고, 내 정신공간 또한 형편없이 옹색해졌을 것이다. '

지난주부터 매일매일 병원으로 퇴근한다. 아버지는 내가 철들때부터 내 기억에는 항상 법정 스님의 책을 읽으셨다. 이 책 ' 버리고 떠나기' 도 아빠와 따로 살게 된 후 아주 오랜만에 보는 책이다. 여러번 반복해서 줄치고, 형광펜으로 하이라이트 하시며 읽으신 흔적을 볼 수 있었다. 그 중에서 펴져있던 부분이 ' 나의 휴식시간' 그리고 위의 글이었다.

어렸을적에는 법정스님의 책들을 무조건 기피했다. 아빠가 좋아했기 때문이고, 지금도 그렇지만 물욕으로 가득찬 연약한 존재인 '나' 란 인간과 영 맞지 않는 책이라고 생각했기 때문이다.

우연히 읽게 된 위의 문구는 나의 우스운 사람 보는 기준에 의해 ( 책 많이 읽는 사람 = 좋은 사람) 법정 스님에 대해 다시 보게 한다.

십여년이 넘게 항상 곁에 있었던 책인데, 넘겨 보는 것은 처음이다.

위의 글에 이어서 법정스님은 학교 다니다가 절에 들어갈때 가장 힘든일이 ' 책들과의 이별' 이었다고 한다. ( 호감도 상승) 고르고 골라 세 권을 들고 올라갔다고 한다. 나중에는 그것도 시들해지더라고 한다. 어떤 경지인지 절에 올라가보지 않은 나로서는 알기 힘들지만, 그 경지는 요즘 내가 읽고 있는 안톤 체홉의 단편집중 '내기' 를 연상시키기도 한다. 한 젊은 변호사가 백만장자 은행가와 내기를 하고 십오년동안 감금된다. 십오년동안 있으면 이백만루블을 받는거고 그 전에 못 참고 나오면 은행가가 이기는거다.  십오년동안 온갖 책들을 섭렵한 그 변호사는 깨달은 바가 있어 십오년을 채우는 몇시간을 남겨두고 나오게 된다. 

'그대들의 책은 나에게 지혜를 가져다 주었다. 지칠 줄 모르는 인간의 사고 능력으로 몇 세기에 걸쳐 이룩해 낸 모든 것들이 나의 두개골 속에서 작은 언덕으로 쌓였다. 내가 그대들 누구보다도 현명하다는 것을 나는 안다. 또한 나는 그대들의 모든 책을 경멸한다. 이 세상의 모든 행복과 지혜를 경멸한다. 그 모두가 시시하고 무상하며 신기루처럼 공허하고 기만적인 것이다..'

뭐, 난 어떻든 책을 버릴 수도 기증할 수도 주기도 힘든 인간이다. 팔아서 다른 책 사면 몰라도. ^^;;

법정 스님의 책 뒤적거리다 본 좋은 말

괴테의 '파우스트' 에서 메피스토 펠레스가 하는 얘기인데

' 모든 이론은 회색이다. 그러나 살아 있는 생명의 나무는 푸르다. '

대학 4년동안 멀리하던 괴테의 '파우스트' 를 슬쩍 보관함에 넣어본다.

The Top 100 Hard-Boiled Characters

of the Twentieth Century,
As Chosen by the Members of Rara-Avis,
and compliled by Joe Dante and Mark Blumenthal

In March and April of 2002, the members of Rara-Avis, the web's premier disscussion group for all things hard-boiled, decided to poll its members on the The Top 100 Hard-Boiled Characters of the Twentieth Century.

Readers were invited to submit their top twenty votes via e-mail. In announcing the winners, co-compiler Mark Blumenthal had this to say:

"Here is our selection of the 100 (actually 111, to allow for ties) best hard-boiled characters (in literature). Although there are several many of us would not consider hard-boiled, most of our ballots had a large majority of characters who made it into the top 111... Of those authors who had more than three characters in the best 111, Dashiell Hammett had six characters and Walter Mosley, George Pelecanos, Jim Thompson, Charles Willeford, and James Ellroy had four apiece. Of those characters that debuted in the 90's Easy Rawlins and Harry Bosch received the most votes."

Seems like Mark wasn't too happy with some of the results, but personally, I was very pleased to see the high regard in which some relatively obscure characters were held, for one, and the wide variety of characters who made it, in general. If hard-boiled is more about attitude than surface trappings, then I have no problem with the final list, really. Though I'm still very conscious of how availability affects the vote. Some of my beloved pulp characters and relatively forgotten P.I.s who just made it to the list could easily rank much higher, I think, if only more people had read them. And, of course, it's a little disappointing that supporting players from popular novels (bolstered in some cases by popular films) cracked the list, while protagonists from some now difficult-to-find novels and series didn't crack it at all. Like, Jo Gar didn't make it? Bummer...

Still, a pretty good list.

The Top 100
(Actually, 111, allowing for ties... )

1. Philip Marlowe (from the series by Raymond Chandler)
2. Sam Spade (from the novel, The Maltese Falcon, by Dashiell Hammett)
3. The Continental Op (from the series by Dashiell Hammett)
4. Lew Archer (from the series by Ross Macdonald)
5. Matt Scudder (from the series by Lawrence Block)
5. Parker (from the series by Richard Stark)
7. Travis McGee (from the series by John D. MacDonald)
8. Easy Rawlins (from the series by Walter Mosley)
9. Harry aka Hieronymus Bosch (from the series by Michael Connelly)
10. Hoke Moseley (from the series by Charles Willeford)
11. Lou Ford (from the novels The Killer Inside Me and Wild Town by Jim Thompson)
12. Mike Hammer (from the series by Mickey Spillane)
13. Matt Helm (from the series by Donald Hamilton)
14. Dave Robicheaux (from the series by James Lee Burke)
14. Nick Stefanos (from the series by George Pelecanos)
14. Grave Digger Jones and Coffin Ed Johnson (from the series by Chester Himes)
14. C.W. Sughrue (from the series by James Crumley)
14. Hap Collins & Leonard Pine (from the series by Joe R. Lansdale)
14. Nameless (from the series by Bill Pronzini)
14. John Rebus (from the series by Ian Rankin)
14. Mouse (from the Easy Rawlins series by Walter Mosley)
22. Spenser (from the series by Robert B. Parker)
23. Eddie Coyle (from the novel, The Friends of Eddie Coyle, by George V. Higgins)
24. Brigid O'Shaughnessy (from the novel, The Maltese Falcon, by Dashiell Hammett)
25. V.I. Warshawski (from the series by Sara Paretsky)
26. Dudley Smith (from the novels by James Ellroy)
26. Paul Pine (from the series by Howard Browne)
26. Dimitri Karras (from the series by George Pelecanos)
26. Arkady Renko (from the series by Martin Cruz Smith)
30. Hanson (from the novels by Kent Anderson)
30. Burke (from the series by Andrew Vachss)
30. Ned Beaumont (from the novel, The Glass Key, by Dashiell Hammett)
30. Artie Wu & Quincy Durant (from the series by Ross Thomas)
30. Tom Ripley (from the series by Patricia Highsmith)
30. Hawk (from the Spenser series by Robert B. Parker)
36. Amos Walker (from the series by Loren D. Estleman)
36. Kinsey Millhone (from the series by Sue Grafton)
36. Steve Carella (from the 87th Precinct series by Ed McBain)
36. George Smiley (from the series by John Le Carre)
36. James Bond (from the series by Ian Fleming)
41. Jack Reacher (from the series by Lee Child)
41. Earl Drake (from The Operation series by Dan J. Marlowe)
41. Bill Crane (from the series by Jonathan Latimer)
41. Keller (from the Hit Man series by Lawrence Block)
41. Frank Chambers (from the novel, The Postman Always Rings Twice, by James M. Cain)
41. Frederick J. Frenger Jr. (from the novel, Miami Blues, by Charles Willeford)
41. Dan Kearney (from the DKA series by Joe Gores)
41. Hannibal Lecter (from the series by Thomas Harris)
41. Batman (from the comics/novels series by various authors)
41. Chili Palmer (from the novels Get Shorty and Be Cool by Elmore Leonard)
51. Martin Beck (from the series by Maj Sjowall and Per Wahloo)
51. Lucas Davenport (from the series by John Sandford)
51. Doc McCoy (from the novel, The Getaway, by Jim Thompson)
51. Peter Bondurant (from the trilogy by James Ellroy)
51. Harry Lime (from the novel, The Third Man, by Graham Greene)
51. Buzz Meeks (from the novel, The Big Nowhere, by James Ellroy)
51. Dan Turner (from the series by Robert Leslie Bellem)
51. Milo Milodragovitch (from the series by James Crumley)
51. Lew Griffin (from the series by James Sallis)
51. Mario Balzic (from the series by K.C. Constantine)
61. Charlie Resnick (from the series by John Harvey)
61. Jack Carter (from the series by Ted Lewis)
61. Clete Purcell (from the Dave Robicheaux series by James Lee Burke)
61. Max Latin (from the short stories by Norbert Davis)
61. Lloyd Hopkins (from the series by James Ellroy)
61. Joe Friday (from the Dragnet series by various authors)
61. Shell Scott (from the series by Richard S. Prather)
61. Nate Heller (from the series by Max Allan Collins)
61. Nick Corey (from the novel, Pop. 1280, by Jim Thompson)
61. Nick and Nora Charles (from the novel, The Thin Man, by Dashiell Hammett)
71. Marcus Clay (from the series by George Pelecanos)
71. Socrates Fortlow (from the series by Walter Mosley)
71. Richard Bone (from the novel, Cutter and Bone, by Newton Thornburg)
71. Detective Sergeant Department of Unexplained Deaths (from the Factory series by Derek Raymond)
71. Elvis Cole (from the series by Robert Crais)
71. Walter Huff (from the novel, Double Indemnity, by James M Cain)
71. James Figueras (from the novel, The Burnt Orange Heresy, by Charles Willeford)
71. Casper Gutman (from the novel, The Maltese Falcon, by Dashiell Hammett)
71. Mike Shayne (from the series by Brett Halliday)
71. Frank Clemons (from the trilogy by Thomas Cook)
71. Sharon McCone (from the series by Marcia Muller)
71. Race Williams/Three Gun Mack (from the series by Carroll John Daly)
71. John Shaft (from the series by Ernest Tidyman)
71. David Brandstetter (from the series by Joseph Hansen)
71. Jack Liffey (from the series by John Shannon)
71. Perry Mason (from the series by Erle Stanley Gardner)
87. Bernie Gunther (from the Berlin Trilogy by Philip Kerr)
87. Joe Gall (from the series by Philip Atlee)
87. Jonathan Hemlock (from the from the novels The Eiger Sanction and The Loo Sanction by Trevanian)
87. Kells (from the novel, Fast One, by Paul Cain)
87. Joe Pike (from the Elvis Cole series by Robert Crais)
87. Fast Eddie Felson (from the novels The Hustler and The Color of Money, by Walter Tevis)
87. Bob Lee Swagger (from the series by Steven Hunter)
87. Cora Papadakis (from the novel, The Postman Always Rings Twice, by James M. Cain)
87. Roy Dillon (from the novel, The Grifters, by Jim Thompson)
87. Eva Wylie (from the from the series by Liza Cody)
87. Ed and Am Hunter (from the series by Fredric Brown)
87. Skink a.k.a. The Governor (from the a recurring character in the novels by Carl Hiassen)
87. Derek Strange (from the series by George Pelecanos)
87. Lionel Essrog (from the novel, Motherless Brooklyn, by Jonathan Lethem)
87. Charlie Arglist (from the novel, The Ice Harvest, by Scott Phillips)
87. Richard Hudson (from the novel, The Woman Chaser, by Charles Willeford)
87. Ernest Stickney (from the novels Stick and Swag by Elmore Leonard)
87. John Marshall Tanner (from the series by Stephen Greenleaf)
87. Doc Ford (from the series by Randy Wayne White)
87. Jay Gatsby (from the novel, The Great Gatsby, by F. Scott Fitzgerald)
87. Dick Tracy (from the newspaper strip by Chester Gould)
87. Mick Ballou (from the Matt Scudder series by Lawrence Block)
87. Quiller (from the series by Adam Hall)
87. Deputy Detective Carl Houseman (from the series by Donald Harstad)
87. Maigret (from the series by Georges Simenon)
The 21 runner-ups
(Joe Gar almost made it):

Doan and Carstairs (from the novels and short stories by Norbert Davis)
Alexander Cutter (from the novel, Cutter and Bone, by Newton Thornburg)
Patrick Kenzie (from the series by Dennis Lehane)
Harry Stoner (from the series by Jonathan Valin)
Satan Hall (from the series by Carroll John Daly)
Jane Whitefield (from the series by Thomas Perry)
Will Graham (from the novel, Red Dragon, by Thomas Harris)
Abraham Trahearne (from the novel, The Last Good Kiss, by James Crumley)
Dave "The Enforcer" Klein (from the novel, White Jazz, by James Ellroy)
Repairman Jack (from the series by F. Paul Wilson)
Fang Mulheisen (from the series by Jon A. Jackson)
Thorn (from the series by James W. Hall)
Neal Fargo (from the novel, Interface, plus short stories by Joe Gores)
Dan Fortune (from the series by Michael Collins)
Max Cady (from the novel, The Executioners, by John D. MacDonald)
John Francis Cuddy (from the series by Jeremiah Healy)
Mike Dolan (from the novel, No Pockets In a Shroud, by Horace McCoy)
Jo Gar (from the short stories by Raoul Whitfield)
Maximum Bob Gibbs (from the novel, Maximum Bob, by Elmore Leonard)
Bernie Ohls (from the novel, The Big Sleep, by Raymond Chandler)
Carmen Sternwood (from the novel, The Big Sleep, by Raymond Chandler)

'화추클'의 전모님이 올리신 글을 퍼옴.

바이런 " 그녀는 예쁘게 걸어요"

그녀는 예쁘게 걸어요

그녀는 예쁘게 걸어요,

구름 한 점 없이 별 총총한 밤하늘처럼.

어둠과 빛의 그중 나은 것들이

그녀의 얼굴 그녀의 눈에서 만나

부드러운 빛으로 무르익어요,

현란한 낮에는 보이지 않는.

어둠이 좀더 짙거나 빛이 조금 적었다면

새카만 머리카락마다 물결치는

혹은 얼굴 부드럽게 밝혀 주는

저 숨막히는 우아함 반이나 지워졌을 거예요.

밝고 즐거운 생각들이 그 얼굴에서

그곳이 얼마나 순결하고 사랑스러운가 알려줘요.

그처럼 상냥하고 조용하고 풍부한

뺨과 이마 위에서

사람의 마음 사로잡는 미소, 환환 얼굴빛은

말해 줘요, 차가게 보낸 날들을,

지상의 모든 것과 통하는 마음을,

그리고 순수한 사랑의 마음을

---

She Walks in Beauty

She walks in beauty, like the night

Of cloudless climes and starry skies ;

And all that’s best of dark and bright

Meet in her aspect and her eyes;

Thus mellow’d to that tender light

Which heaven to gaudy day denies.

One shade the more, one ray the less,

Had half impair’d the nameless grace Which waves in every raven trees,

Or softly lightens o’er her face ;

Where thoughts serenely sweet express

How pure, how dear their dwelling-place.

And on that cheek, and o’er that brow,

So soft, so calm, yet eloquent,

The smiles that win, the tints that glow,

But tell of days in goodness spent,

A mind at peace with all below,

A heart whose love Is innocent!