one of my students

I had a student who didn't enter  high school.

We had classes only for 6 months and he quit because of his bad behavior like smoking,

running away from house etc.

At first , I thought that he is different from other sts.

I thought that he needs a counselor therefore I searched for a counseling center

that runs in the city, which is free of charge.

Then, I recommended that his mother to take him to the counselor but his mother doesn't

have her own car. That's why I took him to the counselor every Tuesday.

Every after his consultation with the counselor, I had to speak with the counselor 

instead of his mother about him.

We only had 10 free consultation. Unfortunately, nothing happened after 10 times of

consultation. It wasn't helpful at all for us-him, his mother and I.

After that, he ran away form home. I phoned his friends to find out where he is.

He was near my city where it takes 2hours to get there by car.

His parents wouldn't want to do anything for him. That was not the first time.

I asked some advice from my husband and he told me this,

"You should go to that city to bring him back to his parents. There is nobody else who

can help him except you. You better go now!!"

Can you guess how kind he is?

Driving to the city, a thousand emotions crowded through my mind.

"What am I doing?...

Why am I going to this city?...

Why should I go there, not his parents? ...

Why?... Why?... Why?...

It will help him and encourage him...

I am doing well...

This is the best way...

He is my student...

I can turn him a good boy..."

Eventually, I foung him along with his friend so I took him and his friend back to their

parents.

A few days later, he couldn't keep studying with me, so he quit.

For 6months, I did my best to make him study hard but I failed.

I think the reason is that he has some trouble with studying.

 A year later, 

his mother called and told me that she moved and wanted to invite me to her new house

after arranging the house. But she hadn't called me yet and I am worried that something

unexpected happen to her.

Yesterday, I heard a news about him. His bad behavior gets worse and worse and

as well as his younger brother even though he is only 15 years old. 

To make matters worse, his mother has cancer. I am dumbfounded. I feel very sorry for them.

He was my student and I know how sad his mother is for them.

when he was my student, she and I talked a lot.

But I don't want to know their sorrow any more. I don't want to be hurt by them any more.

On the other hand, if she dies for cancer, I can guess how I will regret so much that I didn't

call to comfort. I'm afraid of that.

Here is the question Jason, 

What will I do?

Gimbap

Jessica wanted to have gimbap, I made it for her.

Have you ever seen it? Most Koreans, including my family, like it.

Rice, dried lavers, pickled radish, carrots, spanach, eggs are main ingredents and

we can add some other ingredients like Gimchi, meat, sesame leaves etc.

If you visit my house someday, we can make it together. Isn't it fun just imagining?

I am sure that you will like it so much.

I am interested in foreign food. I want to introduce wonderful Korean food to foreign countries 

and I also want to try wonderful foreign food.

coffee shop in the church

My house was disinfected, we, Jessica and I could not stay there.

We went to the church that is near my house i told you before, in the morning,

and actually, after our class.

There are big buildings in the church.

This is the main building in the church.

There is the coffee shop in this building.

It is inside of the coffee shop that i enjoy drinking coffee and snacks.

 I like espresso coffee. Do you see the book, Secret?

We read books and had some conversation.

After 2hours, we went back home and cleaned the house.

Mopping the floor, that always makes me feel sick to my arms.

I feel shy to write a diary in English.

I want to open this diary only you but I don't know how to do it.

Finding Forrester-Somewhere over the rainbow~

우연히 tv에서 훌륭한 영화 한 편 건졌네. -Finding Forrester

이런 류의 영화가 주는 감동은 얼마나 신선하고 뭉클한지 영화가 끝난 후에도 그 여운에 젖어

오래도록 OST를 들으면서 꼼짝하지 않고 앉아 있고 싶다.

 

포항효자아트홀에선 포스코 주관으로 무료영화를 매 달 볼 수 있다. 내가 포항을 좋아하는 이유 

중 하나ㅎㅎ!  항상 아쉬운 점은 영화가 끝나자 마자 대부분의 사람들은 서둘러 일어서고, 

동시에 마지막 OST의 여운에 빠질 사이도 없이 화면마저 꺼져 버린다는 점!!! 화면이 꺼지면서

음악이 그야말로 뚝!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 끊어져 버리면 그 영화의 감동은 온데간데없이 단칼에 잘려 

나가버리고마는, 마치 사무라이가 번쩍이는 긴 칼을 쳐들어 올려 짚으로 만들어 세운 연습용 

장대를 사선으로 날카롭게, 매섭게, 바람 가르듯 내리쳐 버리듯이 나의 감정도 그리 잘려 

나가는 듯한 느낌은 매번 같더라~ㅎㅎ

자막이 올라가면서 흘러 나오는 OST를 영화보다 더 즐기는 한 사람으로서 여간 아쉽지가 않다.

 

이 영화 역시 마지막 OST의 여운이 주는 감동은 영화가 주는 감동 못지 않은데, 역시 tv는 그걸 

즐기도록 허락하지 않는다.

IZ의 Somewhere over the rainbow~~~~~~~~ 영화가 주는 감동을 더 깊게 해준다.

 

 

멘토와 멘티... 

그리고 숀 코네리...

참 멋있게 나이 든 그의 모습에 배우로서의 최선이 아니겠는가 싶어 훌륭하다는 생각을 한다.

 

 

 

 

 

 

친절

지역교회들은 거의 양질의 찻집을 갖추고 있는 추세이다.

그러한 추세의 혜택을 훌륭하게 보고 있는 나는 저렴한 가격으로 우수한 커피외의 여러가지

차와 다과를 즐길 수 있어 무척 흡족하다. 무엇보다 그 곳은 교회에 딸린 장소이므로 교인이

아닌 나로서도 항상 특별하게 여겨지는 곳이기도 하다.

그날도 친구와 난 여느때와 다름없이 그 특별한 곳을 즐겁고 기껍게 찾았다.

벌써 시장에서 현금을 모두 써버린 상태란 것도 잊고서 말이다(이곳은 현금결제만 가능하다,

그것도 기계에서만). 결국 각자의 주머니를 모두 털어서 모은 돈은 천원권 2장, 오백원동전 1개,

백원동전 7개, 나머진 모두 오십원과 십원동전으로 꼭 삼천원이었고 다행히 맛있는 커피 2잔은

살 수 있는 금액이었다. 안도의 한숨을 유쾌한 웃음으로 바꾸고 주문을 위해 기계 앞에서 돈을

투입하는데, 애재라~ 오십원과 십원 동전들은 기계가 인식을 하지 못하는게 아닌가!!!

부득이 봉사자(이 곳은 봉사자들로 구성된 분들이 서빙을 하고 있는 것으로 알고 있다)들 일하시

는 카운터로 가서 상황설명 하고 오십원과 십원동전들을 백원 동전 3개로 교환해 주실 수 있는

지의 여부를 물었다. 여부- yes, no를 묻는 것이었으나 no를 기대한 마음은 0%도 없었다. 

어느 누군들 이런 상황에서 no를 예측할 수 있으랴!!! 그것도 교회 테두리 안에서......!!!

봉사자들 중 한 분은 돈이 없으시다며 옆에 계시는 분께 물었고, 그 옆에 계시던 분의 대답이 날

무척이나 어안이 벙벙하게 만들더라!

"십원동전들은 내가 쓸데가 없기 때문에 바꿔줄 수가 없어요!"

잘못 들은 건가 싶어 다시 물었으나 대답은,

"십원 동전들은 내가 쓸데가 없어요!"

하여 재차......

"결국 바꿔 주실 수 없으시다는 말씀이신가요?"

"네!"

그 대답의 딱딱함이란...내가 받은 그 느낌이란.....내가 무척 가난해서 마음조차 보잘 것 없는

 사람이었다면 눈물을 쏟아 내고도 남을 서러움을 느끼기에도 충분하였다. 300원을 좀 달라는

것도 아니지 않는가!

교인은 아니나 그곳을 찾을 때면 항상 특별한 곳이란 깔림이 있었으며, 때로는

신명나게 "교회가자!"라는 말로 즐거움을 쏟아 내기도 하는 그 곳- 교회찻집!!!

그 곳에서 친구들과 난 많은 이야기를 나누고, 많은 위로와 격려와 위안을 주고 받으며

인생을 논하고, 생활을 말하며, 우정을 흩뿌리고 오는 그런 곳이었건만, 십원동전들은 내게

쓸모가 없기 때문에 바꿔 줄 수 없다는 그 말로 내 가슴은 얼마나 먹먹하고 갑갑했는지 그녀는

알까?

자고로 하느님의 사랑을 실천하는 사람이라면, 그 실천의 첫걸음으로 봉사라는 일을 하고 있는

사람이라면 내게 비록 조금 쓸모가 없더라도 남이 긴요하게 필요하다면, 그것이 백원 동전 3개

라면 기꺼이 바꿔 줄 수 있는 친절 정도는 마음에 두고 있어야 하지 않을까!