Still I have 3 to 4 more pages to write for my research paper, but I end up doing blogging which makes me sad. Why can't I stick to one thing? Or should I ask "Do I really have the ability to make everything work?"
I believed myself more than anybody, but in the meantime, depended on it too much saying like 'although I procrastinate, I can do it later (well).'
Where does my confidence come from? These days, I feel like a loser who doesn't do anything except sneaking into someone's blog, and observing THEIR lives, feeling some kind of ugly jealousy.
Where the heck am I now??? Where the heck is the person who thought different from others? Am I not special? I thought I'm so special... so lucky... Everybody is special and lucky.
This is the time to abandon any kinds of corny excuses, and put the one step ahead. Do not look back, do not procrastinate, and like I always remind myself, have a real curiosity of knowledge. Fake doesn't work at all.
This is THE LAST chance that I can make a quantum leap.