20p.
...Even for someone like me who is superbright and gifted in her studies and different from everyone else, in fact superior to the vast majority - even for me life is already all plotted out and so dismal you could cry: no one seems to have thought of the fact that if life is absurd, being a brilliant success has no greater value than being a failure. It‘s just more comfortable. And even then : I think lucidity gives your success a bitter taste, whereas mediocrity still leaves hope for something.
32p.
...You know you have reached the very bottom of the social food chain when you detect in a rich person‘s voice that he is merely addressing himself and that, although the words he is uttering may be, technically, destined for you, he does not even begin to imagine that you might be capable of understanding them.