Mary But I suppose life has ...

Mary
But I suppose life has made him like that, and he can’t help it. None of us can help the things life has done to us. They’re done before you realize it, and once they’re done they make you do other things until at last everything comes between you and what you’d like to be, and you’ve lost true self forever.

Mary
We’ve loved each other. We always will! Let’s remember only that, and not try to understand what we cannot understand, or help things that cannot be helped- the things life has done to us we cannot exercise or explain.

Mary
The past is the present, isn’t it? It’s the future, too. We all try to lie out of that but life won’t let us.

Edmund
Who wants to see life as it is, if they can hep it? It’s the three Gorgons in one. You look in their faces and turn to stone. Or it’s Pan. You see him and you die- that is, inside you- and have to go on living as a ghost.

Edmund
(He recites Baudelaire’s prose poems.)
If you would not feel the horrible burden of Time weighing on your shoulders and crushing you to the earth, be drunken continually. Drunken with what? With wine, with poetry, or with virtue, as you will. But be drunken.

Edmund
The hardest thing to take is the blank wall she build around her. Or it’s more like a bank of fog in which she hides and loses herself. Deliberately, that’s the hell of it! You know something in her does it deliberately - to get beyond our reach, to be rid of us, to forget we’re alive! It’s as if, in spite of loving us, she hated us!

Secular trends;30-40years Bu...

Secular trends;30-40years
Business cycle ; 4-5years
Commodities bull market when stock bear

He kisses- like someone who j...

He kisses- like someone who just learned a foreign language and can use only the present tense and only the second person. Only now, only you.

Strange to be almost fifty, no? I feel like i just understand how to be young.

Yes! It’s like the last day in a foreign country. You finally figure out where to get coffee, and drinks, and a good steak. And then you have to leave. And you won’t even be back.

Rowing Study at Yale and Oxf...

Rowing
Study at Yale and Oxford
Curious about the world

Louis Pasteur: Luck favors only the mind that is prepared.

Short
Work with George Soros at Quantum fund

Know when to Sit and wait
Revisit diversification; safe but not rich

You should be as careful as you would be if you had only twenty-five investments to make over the course of your life.

Retired at 37

Motorcycle world tour for 22months : book [ investment biker]

3year millennium adventure with convertible Mercedes: book [ adventure capitalist]

Gold, oil- 70s, bull
90s, bear market in raw material

Start Rogers International Commodity Index(RICI) 1998, as 2012, return 281%, S&P 62%

8. The largest debtor nation in history

Alan Greenspan; federal reserve chairman 1987-
Flooding world with dollars -> dotcome bubble, house bubble,
Ben Bernanke;2002-> global financial collapse of 2008
Hank Paulson; secretary of the Treasury at 2008; rescue the banks with $700 billion for bailout, (he was ex ceo of Goldman Sachs), keep the $700 mil pension of Goldman intact

9. Capitalism without bankruptcy is like Christianity without hell

10. Journey to the east
Move to Singapore

Invest in China, Myanmar, North Korea

Account in Swiss, franc ;

15. The sun is rising in the East
The Chinese are going around the globe and buying up all sorts of productive assets, oil fields, plantations, mines because there is a shortage of raw materials.

16. Creative destruction

The world economy is a system of creative destruction. The new rises and replaces the old.

Two positive sign of America; agriculture and shale gas
But not even taken together do they lead to a recovery.

Change tax system, education, health care and litigation reform. Bring the troops home

If you were that little girl,...

If you were that little girl, the daughter of a mother who couldn’t give you the love you needed so much, you go through your days with a cavernous gap in your confidence, a sense of emptiness and sadness.

Part 1: identifying the mother wound
1. Taboo of questioning your mother’s love
2. Severely narcissistic mother
3. Overly enmeshed mother
4. Control freak mother
5.mothers who need mothering
6. Mothers who neglect, betray and batter

Part 2: healing the mother wound

7. Beginnings of truth
I’m starting to see it wasn’t all my fault.

8. Acknowledge the painful feelings
It feels so good to get it all out

9.tapping the wisdom in your anger and grief
I’m ready to face the feeling I’ve pushed down so long.

Feel your anger without judging it
Acknowledge that you have the right to feel angry
Release the energy of anger with physical activity

We don’t want to wallow in our sadness. But if we don’t confront our grief by facing it bravely, it is likely to continue to have a powerful hold over us. We have to go through grief. If they let themselves acknowledge and feel their deep sorrow, it will diminish gradually.

10. Change your behavior, change your life


Nondefensive phrases

Really?
I see
I understand
That’s interesting
That’s your choice
I’m sure you see it that way.
You’re entitled to your opinion.
I’m sorry you’re upset.
Let’s talk about this when you’re calmer.
Yelling and threatening aren’t going to solve anything.
I don’t choose to have this conversation.
This subject is off limit.
Guilt peddling and playing the pity card are not going to work anymore.
I know you’re upset.
This is nonnegotiable.

11. Setting boundaries

You are not responsible for your mother’s life, moods, feelings. They belong to her. No matter how guilty it makes you feel, your job is to create a boundary between her life and yours.

Anticipating her needs, reactions and upsets take the place of exploring your own desires or even saying “i want” and “I prefer” and “ I see it this way”. It’s common for daughters to take a passive role in their own lives if they are accustomed to reacting their mothers and forgetting or never discovering, what it is like to have an identity of their own.

You have a right to ask your mother not to criticize you, your friends, or your family. You can ask her to withhold unasked-for advice. You don’t have to accept any more blame or responsibility for her problems and upsets.

12. Deciding what kind of relationship you want now

13. The most difficult decision
Breaking off : when everything else has failed

14. Old, sick or alone: the suddenly dependent mother

Coda:connecting, at last, with the good mother

Learn by observing good mothers
Remember the people who have genuinely loved you
It might be an aunt, a teacher, a grandmother -someone who treated you with kindness and respect, someone who cared about your emotional well-being and wanted to nurture it. Become that good mother yourself.- good mother excercise